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Saturday, April 9, 2011

She has come so far.



Its amazing how life changes and brings about changes inside of each one of us. We make mistakes, we learn, we grow, and we change. Megan is 10 years old and reads site words. She goes to bed with out a fight. Bath time every night before PJ'S and bed. She sits down at the table to eat every meal. These may not seem like a big deal to most people, but to us these are huge milestones! They told me she'd never read. Trying to get her in a bath or shower used to be an all out war! She would scream , hit ,and pinch, leaving bruises all over our arms. Bed time was also a  nightmare. At dinner our family would sit down to eat but not Megan she would run around. Every once in a while she would come take food off of her plate or our plates, What ever she wanted she would just grab I'm not kidding you here. Dinner at the Misner's was just like a scene taken out of the miracle worker (story of Helen Keller) screaming yelling pounding on doors It was so chaotic! Five years ago I was in a different life than today THANK YOU JESUS! Waking up some mornings finding walls painted with poop, or worse a little girl passed out because she got into the med cabinet and ate her clonidine (The entire bottle!)  which brings me to remember those days...Days of shaming myself because I was falling short on being the good wife and mom I wanted to be.  I mean c'mon what kind of mom wouldn't hear her child get up and get in the medicine? Ill tell you what kind a very tired mom. a very exhausted mom, a mom that was barely hanging on herself. There was a long time in that place where I forgot how to smile. I still fall short at times, but I quit shaming my self. I am so proud of Megan. She has worked  hard on things that come natural to most people. I am thankful to God that He has brought her this far and He is not finished with her yet.You know what? I am thank full to Daddy God that He is not finished with me either. Each day I'm a little closer to what He has made me for. I'm so glad  He finishes what He starts!